Soshi jiang

2012-01-24T14:15:00.002+08:00

i feel dead inside.

all this weight thing, i think im going to shoot myself soon.

why is there a need to seperate thin and fat people?

2012-01-21T13:16:00.000+08:00

i guess i really did though.

2012-01-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

today.

welll 2012 needs some getting used to.

and i really really wish this year dont pass as fast as last year.

and i should do things that i want and not regret.

because regretting too late has no use too.

last year has been a great year with lots of stuff happening, situations constantly changing.

and a chance to state thankfulness.

sooooo 2011 has been great and im looking forward to 2012 yep.

2012-01-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

and im really grateful for that.

2011-12-30T15:14:00.001+08:00

to you who feel sad at life now:

2011-12-25T21:39:00.002+08:00

since last year

so much that i dont even know how much

and im just waiting to see who walks out of my life next.

next year's really going to be damn sad.

and probably really really cold.

and i dont want that i really hate it so much that i really dread for next year to come.

cos probably its better last year

its probably receiving hate then receiving love.

if this somehow makes sense.

2011-12-24T01:14:00.002+08:00

yep HAHA ive been watching too much running man omg

and theres this where ive been searching for so long hehe she has a nice eye smile:)

2011-12-22T14:29:00.002+08:00

hehe i ship monday couple:)

ive been watching running man this holiday life hehe:) and i was glad that jihyo won on ep 73:)

wlao ive been wanting to buy a lot of stuff recently but then theres nothing i like out there gr:(

so im just impatiently waiting for ep 74 to come out HAHAHA without having any intentions to do my homework ahhh HAHA.

its damn cool omg:)

and jong kook and kwang soo look good with the new hair~

k bye hehe proud to be a running man fan:)

2011-12-20T14:56:00.001+08:00

11 days are not enough to muster up courage.
how can i even say bye tsk.

2011-12-19T15:32:00.002+08:00

i kinda have a goal for next year, i kinda really want to be softer and not that loud
and not so hyper and energetic. and maybe just be cool with everything and easy going.
and carefree. it seems less stressful like that. and not scream that much.
probably dont get angry too.
and dont really always tell my problems to people cause its not like im the only one having a big deal. when at this time everyone is
and give really sincere and honest cards.
being honest too.
and not having motives in everything i do.
yeah.
i hope it really goes that way.
cos i hate that i always make a big fuss out of everything.
woo anticipate a new me next year ~

Song of my life.

2011-12-15T11:16:00.003+08:00

Desperate for changing

Starving for truth

I'm closer where I started

I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you

Lettin go of all I've held onto

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you.

2011-12-11T22:12:00.002+08:00

things have been too good lately. its like im happy about everything. but i know when this kinda things happen a hurricane will soon come over. it always does. so im afraid.

and please dont leave yet. i havent said goodbye.

and i cant stand people leaving without them knowing how much they mean to me.

ive been wishing about this every 1111, to probably have the chance to say goodbye.

but the saddest thing is that when ive put all my expectation to this 1111 wish, thinking that it might somehow come true, and in the end you just leave me unknowningly.

i hate goodbyes.

and its not like we are going to see each other anymore after this goodbye.

how do i say goodbye when ive hardly said hello?

im so sad.

2011-12-10T20:23:00.000+08:00

2011-12-06T18:02:00.001+08:00

my goal of the week:

2011-11-27T15:27:00.001+08:00

its sad because i think of this question everyday and cant find an answer to it.

2011-11-26T14:25:00.002+08:00

and i probably found out things that i dont want to know.

and its kinda dumb because every thing changes just because of that.

yeah wtv

2011-11-09T00:52:00.002+08:00

why is it that old friends always know you best? even when they all started drifting away, and gradually it feels like i need to distant myself from them too. but even so, they still know you best. its sad like that because somehow they still know you and they dont seem to forget you AND SOMEHOW ALWAYS SEEM TO SEE YOUR HIDDEN HAPPINESS. these makes me sad because i dont remember who they really are anymore. makes me guilty like poop. man i hate life.

2011-11-09T00:50:00.000+08:00

andd to everyone in the world:

2011-11-07T00:39:00.002+08:00

and just i was wondering why didnt i wish you happy birthday 6 months before. was it really because i didnt had the reasons to, or was it just because i was too ashamed to do so? i dont even have a single damn clue about this and man i hate this.

2011-10-30T21:49:00.002+08:00

anddd yeap hehe.

ugh my muscles are just freaking pain goshh.

K BYE.

2011-10-22T20:43:00.001+08:00

THIS IS WHY I WANT TO GO IRELAND :

2011-10-22T20:25:00.002+08:00

anyone rich enough to buy me that? hehe i will love you loads:)

blah blah blah i want to buy so many things oh gosh hehe things like rayban, shoes and loadsss of clothes HAHAHAH i need cash man OMG:(

i need $$ to visit beautiful places around the world too ahhhh EESH.

MAYBE I NEW HOCKEY STICK TOO :o

SNSD CONCERT, USS and partyin this holiday needs money tooo :(

good presents, yummy food all shit HAHAH,

i should start working.

hmm.

HEHEHEHEH K BYEBYE.

tiffany so cute.

2011-10-17T23:07:00.003+08:00

i am thankful for hugs.

i think its pretty good to state something i am thankful of everyday so i dont grief so much and appreciate things. but then probably it'll only work when im sad. cos thats the only time i come to blog. i am so sorry i dont make sense here haha.

anyway today was really. just probably sad. knowing that all my efforts went to waste would probably be the worst thing in the whole world. although being alone is worse than that.

seeing someone sad but not being able to cheer them up is another thing that hurts quite alot. blub. sigh. and hockey training was just tiring my shitz out haha 3km was killer. and then there was embarrassing moment and yeap. wtv.

i am probably sucha a coward urgh.

theres soo many things i want to say to so many people. this and that. some i have been dying to say last year while some developed just recently. and whatever, but what really stops me from saying is maybe, maybe i am so scared that i will lose them when i tell them the truth. and losing friends can be really the saddest shit on earth. i cant adapt to all these changes that come pouring at me suddenly. you have went to this and she has went to that. and well i guess i have naturally went to some place either. ive been working on a pretence project recently, hoping to get what i want, but today it seems like all this pretending cant help me in any way.

problem is, i dont even know if im pretending or not.

i kinda lost myself.

ive been just wondering round and round the circle of everyone's trust.

hoping someone would think i am trust worthy.

thing is, how can i let people trust me when i cant even trust them?

i probably went through all these last year, but that was because at one point of time, a kind soul offered time and concern and im thankful of that.

and okay blah i should stop here byebye.

SHOULDNT SOUND SO GAY AND STUFF.

adam couple makes me happy afterall this shit:)

2011-10-13T18:56:00.000+08:00

can i please go back to last year?

what kind of connections do we have these days i cant even handle this shit and that shit ;(

people are like jellyfishes, they sting other people eeks.

and it hurts quite bad :/

okay so EOY was over hehe and it was fun with geraldine and arina and people at great world. and thenn picnic at sentosa was today hehehe god i got stung by baby jellyfishes.

apparently faith said she was at sentosa too HAHAHA i didnt see her:(

anyway yeah okay it was fun mhmm

but then it was tiring too:( oh and sorry arina rashid i try my best to scan the polaroids by today k hehehehh WTS YOU WONT BE EVEN READING THIS-.-

heh. k bye.

#meganizer101

2011-09-21T22:33:00.001+08:00

cos probably people do change and wtf am i talking about?

#mentalbreakdown

2011-09-14T19:59:00.002+08:00

thiss.. makes sense haha.

but then what if i came to miss someone that would be gone quite soon:(

but then what if i came to miss how we were like sec 1s.

but what if, what if i came to miss things that wont come back for sure?

and i'm pretty sure they're valuable~

2011-09-14T19:53:00.000+08:00

2011-09-10T23:01:00.001+08:00

HEHE :)

2011-09-08T18:50:00.002+08:00

Time really passed fast this year. Its alrdy hello september. :(

mhmm soo this has been what i have been experiencing recently!

boobies so life has been so far neutralised with both good and bad

Friends became closer hehe.

alottt of things changed though and i liked/hated that.

Some are beneficial whereas sometimes it just can be quite sad!

hehehe god i dont make sense.

anddd i realised i sound gay with all the previous sad posts :/

blub.

it has been torturous recently with my infection that triggers at anytime of every year.

unfortunatelyyyy it came during the sep hols HAHAHA and all my white blood cells are decreasingggg and have this ugly cold sore in between myv mouth and nose. IM HECKING HIDEOUS.

hockey has been quite tiring and i lost all my stamina. :(

and all the practice knocks the heck outta me.

although its not that tiring after all

buttt OKAY IDK BRIAN NOT FUNCTIONING TODAY.

im sucha procrasinator, heh.

things has been going well for me though but this makes me wonder will it be quite tedious after all these good things? i hope it stays like that for very very long.

AND my jealousy has been burning, mmm not really hahahah oh god someone please calm me down.

just that i cant help to fix this thing :(

sooo i wish that i can be less sensitive for the coming days and just go with the flow:)

god this is a freaking long post alright.

blubbbb blubbb.

discovering awesome songssss that relates is really.. hehe satisfying

EOYs are coming OMGOSH

i ran out of things to say hehe.

goldfishes sing by blubbing, thats music. - Yuqian:)

2011-08-19T22:40:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAH all the time.

why am i so afraid of losing people nowadays? why am i so cautious nowadays that i freak myself out. why do i ALWAYS expect so much from other people? afterall what i give is just so much lesser than what i expect to get back. life's not just give and take, though. when can i stop being so selfish and desperate? i dont even know how i really am sigh thats bad. ive been trying too hard and its pretty pathetic to do that, now that i realised. do real egoists exist? cos from what i do being ego is just pretending to be strong when im not, tsk what the hell happened to me.

ANDDDDDDDD.......

e-learning week has been hell boring and i cannot that this anymore SCIENCE TEACHER CAN YOU TEACH MORE EFFICIENTLY?! i dont even get what you say all the time. AND I DONT WANA FAIL MY PHYSICS LAH WTS. ive been wasting my time playing ps3 all day at home. OMG WAKE UP YUQIAN ITS STREAMING YEAR FOR GOODNESS SAKE.

the glass of water which used to be half full, now half empty.

2011-08-11T18:30:00.002+08:00

and so today im like:

but when i have pokemon, spongebob and TIFFANYYY :)

I THINK I WILL BE JUSTT FINE hehe.

i really saw it, though.

2011-08-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

why cant i seem to solve any freaking maths questions?!

2011-07-27T22:58:00.003+08:00

hahaha yeap totally yesterday, today, everyday.

mmm i think today science test was quite easy hehe.

and omg sorrry i hadnt been texting 24/7 recently sigh:/

theres training tmr eeks.

i hope my hit is pretty good tmr~

school have been pretty okayy hahah at least im still coping it well

but then i was wondering why everyone so sad nowadays,

including me. sigh july is really sad but thankfully its gonna be over soon.

and i hope august would be a blast.

things changed so damn much since last year

and i wonder is this good or bad.

the cliques seems to widen up abit mhmm

but then why cant i seem to find anyone to trust.

i seem so far away from myself and i guess im gonna lose it soon.

but then we should be happy and enjoy life~ wts i dont make sense wtv byebye

2011-07-21T22:22:00.002+08:00

my dreams kinda crashed this whole week,

cdiv was really sad i think we should have worked harder to get into the semis.

and, the fact that the same thing happened today like the same day last year made me realise, its time to give up.

so i have to persevere then i will give up and i get back on track again and reality kills me and i gave up in the end.

so i guess tonight's when i need that motivation that always make me survive so far.

but somehow, somehow, i seem to really far from it and i have no reasons to go on anymore.

do you have to make me feel like theres nothing left of me~

skyscraper is the song of my life now.

2011-07-20T21:07:00.001+08:00

omgosh so cute

2011-07-08T19:49:00.002+08:00

hahahaha practically what i thought of myself today HAHA,

OH MAN what do i do about my maths test sigh.

and im reallyyy excited for crezawards hehe.

but then why this year so little dance:(

mmm music lesson was boringgg:(

and i havent finish tuition work. OMGOSH.

Training todayy sigh idk why i was pretty sad,

at least my 16 got to the forwards.

thats.. good.

andddd yeah. HAHAHA.

xiaoling's tmr CANT WAIT HEHEHEH

2011-07-02T21:22:00.002+08:00

well im ready for harry potter though, definitely, but im not ready for the tournaments, the tests, the tuition work, the saddening surprises and the never ending friendship cylcee.

more hockey means more stress and i dont think i can cope it any longer

more tests means more study and i dont think i have enough time to study

more saddening surprises means more setbacks and i dont think i am that strong enough to overcome it

more friendship cycle means.. yeah.

never in life would i thought hockey to be so stressful to me but i have no intentions to quit it either. im going to stay strong~ but when coach said he just wants to give up on me sometimes,

i got really sad and i had no idea how to react

should i cry on the spot, should i remain calm, what should i do.

in the end i kept quiet for the whole trg anndddd cried at night

SO IM GONNA PROMISE MYSELF I WILL NEVER DROP A TEAR IN THE PITCH.

if i do means i gave up and noo i dont want it to happen.

and this shall be my motivation till the end of cdiv.

everyday i hope my hit gets better:(

and i hope it does, so i dont lose hope to myself anymore.

however im not prepared for what im gonna face when i miss hit again.

so what does this sayyy

IM NOT READY FOR JULY.

2011-06-21T21:01:00.004+08:00

i ate alot of chicken today HAHA.

mmm anyway today was very tiringggg we went for orchard trail HAHAHA and the sun so hot omgosh i want to die. D:

we had to interview foreigners like omg hahaha so embarrassing hehe but jap people are so polite:)

idk what to say hahahah.mmm its arinas birthday tmr. HHAHAHAHAHHA CANT WAIT:)

mm i finished watching ROSEATE LOVE and it was so nice go watch hehe. i love happy endings~

and ive really been listening to chinese songsss :o

hahahha but who cares. well i guess i need to practice for hockey. slaps me out so bad.

nowadays music is my only company sighhhh

shit i think im hungry. what to do.

HAHAHAHHA i think im just blogging for the sake of blogging!

HAHAHA i dont make sense.

i need to start on maths soon:)

im hungry and im waiting for my phone to vibrate

well whos kind enough to give my phone some kinetic energy? :)

2011-06-18T20:19:00.002+08:00

yeap it was so different.

number 1 was probably because hockey camp wasnt over yet

it was on 20th june if im not wrong:)

hehe oh well, everything changed:( thats really sad.

last year was like heaven well this years like hell.

last year was pretty amazing and this year has been boring so far

i realised im not the only one that fears being overtaken, well, the whole team is.

coping studies and hockey is realllyyyyy stressful and i dont think i can take it anymore

waking up early nearly everyday for hockey is pretty tiring too

living in dreams but reality smacks the shit outta me is just. SAD.

but what to to life's unfair.

theeee only thing that im happy about the holidays is probably GSS hahaha

i spent 200 ytd like OMGOSH.

hahahah no more shopping for the next 3 months:(

anyway i have been listening to chinese songs recently hehe and guo jing sho cute omgosh HAHAHA but why she 30 this year. :(

sigh i got tuition tmr! :(

ive been dreaming of quite amazing stuff recently.

2011-06-12T18:22:00.000+08:00

How do you say things that you dont know how to say.

2011-06-10T20:02:00.002+08:00

how long was the last post? HAHAHHA

2011-05-26T11:05:00.003+08:00

i guess no one cares~

i think my life is pretty tiring nowadays with ear infection, fever ( non stop) , and throat inflammation. 12 PILLS A DAY is hell. but im lucky enough to have it after 6/7 aside:) we got 2nd:) I THINK because of my bintan trip i have lost alot of chances,either in hockey, or school activities. tsk . i think i am invisible sometimes HAHHA. but i guess im not the only one who feels this way! WHAT AM I TALKING. hahahahhaha OH GOSH. but honestly, i wana feel how insanity is like. i wana be drunk too! so maybe someone, will know how i really feel! I have beautiful dreams nowadays, but it never comes true. what. I SHALL JUST MAKE FAITHS CARD NOW BYEBYE.

its not that i dont wna wish, i just dont have the reasons to.

2011-05-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

hmmmm today was pretty happy + sad HAHHAH

We had error analysis AND it was boring shit so during science hehe i wrote love story for geraldine HAHHAHA aw. I BEST STORY WRITER HEHE. anywayy and then we had alot of free periodsHEHEHE watched horror all the wayy hehe. oh i slept during home ec HAHAHHA so naise to sleep hehehe. then we had LUNCH oh wait we had RECCESS CELEBRATED mozhi's birthday HEHEHHE. then lunch HHAHHAHA and yeahhhh AHAHHa mt fortnight was very boring HAHHAHA AND WE HAD HOCKEYYYYYYY hahha:) it was tired shit hehe but im quite prouddd we finished 10 rounds YEAHHHH anyway AND TOOK THE BUS HOMEEEE SWEET HOME. yeah ehehehhe my finger is getting better HELL YEAH .

anyway, i didnt go according to order HAHAHHAH ALL MIXED UP.

now i wana be a peer:( EHHHH IM SO FRIENDLY+ENTHU+HIGH+LOUD+NICE FRINGE

okay last one dont count HAHAHHA . but still~ HAHAHAh sigh`

okay nvm anyway this cat sho cute HAHHAHA

and arinaaaaa nadiah ILY hahahhahahah :) thanks for the letterr~

BLAH BLAH GOLDFISHES LAUGH LIKE BLUBBLUBBLUBLUB

2011-05-16T22:41:00.002+08:00

nahhhh today was really saddening. it was shit boring for science inno and stuff.

training was okayyy though! but still pretty sad:(

this is getting baddddd

sigh i dont even know whether the things im doing are right or wrong~

i wna secure a place in this friendship but it just keeps shaking and shaking

i think we should all forget things we shouldnt rmb!

makes life way easier HAHAHAHHA

this post is so random! but today is just sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight~

blubblub. AND I AM WAY A BUSY BODYYYYYY

i should stop fearing so much and just face reality!

but at the end of the day, who can~

SIGH!

i shall sleepz SOON! BYEEEE

2011-05-15T19:33:00.002+08:00

maybe someday i will travel the world! :)either alone or with someone else who knows mhmm.

exams are over hehehhe

BUT IM FEELING AS BORED AS EVER;(hehe.

MATHS is really saddening i will fail it HAHA. i just hope its like presentable

I HOPE I GET LIKEA 40-50 instead of lower;(

thursday was the bomb hehe had hockey camp planning in school till 1 and cabbed to cineleisure to watch beastly HEHE.

cineleisure is flooded with cresentians oh my gosh HAHAH.

friday was funfunfunfun at xiaolings HAHAH.

we went swimming but for 10 minutes only cos it started to rain -.-

then we had yummy lunch and pool and RETARD TIME AT XIAOLINGS BED HEHEHEH

shirmin i dont laugh likea toad kk HAHAHAH

saturday was tired shit with abiegail at RI had been out since 6am!. HAHAHAHA man RI is damn cool.

THEY USE LITFS. -.-

hahahahha and the talk was yeah. uh. you know.

retard. HAHAHHAHA THEN we went clarke quay took pretty pretty pictures HAHAHAH

and bought sticky HAHA.

so yeap/

went to a wedding at night HAHAHHA i dont even know the groom and bride likea WHUT?

hahahhaha and went to my cousins house OH MAN the dog still sho cute HAHHA

anyway. YEAH

i cant wait for tmr

HEHEH byebye blubblublbub

and then isnt this just gorgeous.:)

MATHS MAKE ME GO

2011-05-08T19:50:00.002+08:00

hehe SHO CUTE. okayyy so im not ready for tuesday and thursday and oh i missed wednesday hehe. ive been procrastinating since forever and it sucks! ohhhhhh man HAHHAHA.

i dont like maths! somehow even history is better :( BOO.

but then im really excited for the things thats gonna happen after exams hehe

inter house~ hockey camp~ and several time for birthday gifts hehe mhmmhmmm

i shall mug at 8.15 later after tumblr HEHEH and i hope i wont slackkk!

heheh running man ep 36 was da bomb EVERYONE GO WATCH IT HAHA

today's mother's day! HAHAH so sad we didnt go anyway

SIGH! YAYYYYY ive taken more than 80+ polaroids its so pretteh hehe

so yEAH byebye:)

2011-05-03T20:40:00.002+08:00

soooo my whole afternoon till now was science madness.

WHAT CHEMICAL BONDING WHAT SHIT IM MORE CONFUSED ONLY.

yesss i failed english comphre again. and maths test i got a justpass.

today was so sad HAHAHA. i dont want get in trouble again :(

so ionic bonds is like transferring of valence electrons and convalent is like sharing of valence electrons and metallic is losing negatively charged electrons to become poistively charged??

that shit took me 2 hours to understand:(

OKAYYY. yeah.

tired like poopppppp. I SHOULD FINISH THIS WS AND LOOK AT CHINESE GESHI AND SLEEP!

hehhe okay byebye.

IM GONNA BE ON HIATUS hehe dont miss meee:)

byebyeeee and tiffany still sho cute hehe

2011-05-01T15:57:00.002+08:00

hehe HELLO EVERYONE. how is your weekend treating youuuuu?

mine is as boring as ever. MUGGERRR

hahahhaaha but its okay dont worry i didnt change.

i procrastinated . sigh!

HAHAHA.

im so screwed for MYE maths. honestly, should be everything HAHHA.

okay. i havent start revising! OH NO.

mmm HAHAHAHHA but then nowadays its just so distracting hahaha

AFTERSCHOOL HAD THEIR COMEBACK!

( i was supposed to post this like way earlier but couldnt get the chance to HAHA)

KAHI'S RAP IS THE BEST HAHAHA.

hehehehhe LIZZY TOO:) they should give her more lines!:((((((

okayyy yeap.

and tiffany is still as gorgeous as everrrrr.

WOI BOY BANDS COMEBACK SOON. tsktsk.HAHAHAH

sooo yeapppp HAHAHHA so i hope everyone will stay happy and yeahhhss:)

2011-04-29T21:40:00.002+08:00

heheheh awwwww. i didnt finish watching the royal wedding though! I FELL ALSEEP! TILL NOW.

and i need to start muggingggg :(

OKAY anyway mr teo is leaving our school todayy:(

hurrr why all the nice teachers are leaving :(

soooo yeahhhh and we made a notice board and bought a cake for him mhmmmhmm. EH I MADE A A3 CARD WITH YINGXUAN hahahah very nice k:)

AND THEN yahhhh lessons todayyy was okay HAHAHA.

oh yeah i woke up late todayy:/

i woke up at 7.17 and then i washed up in 3 minutes and left house at 17.20.

LUCKILY i got a freakin cab just when i reached the road and thus i reached school in 5 min.

HEHH. so i wasnt late.

YAYYAYAYA.

leadership moments was just. UM.

hahahhaha. KKAY byebye i shant mug today.

TMR

HEHE

2011-04-23T23:22:00.002+08:00

yo ma brotherr and sistaaaa HAHAHHA okay lameee

hows life everyone? mine is going alright hehe.

ive been digging my head into books these few days but sadly i just fall asleep.

BLEH.

im giving myself sucha tight schedule HAHHA

obviously i end up being a procrastinator.

oh my god im not going china with my mummy alreadyyyy because i was making a big fuss about missing trgs during the june holidays for 9 days. but srsly. soooo my dad decided to not go too to take care of me. AHHHHHH living w/i my mummyy for 1 whole week oh no.

and then the whole family ignores me nowwwww tsktsk

today was funny shit with yingxuan HAHHA

pink bra and pink panty matching colours HAHAH

okay. HAHAHHA and then center parting HAHAHHA.

sigh im so tired i shall sleep already BYEBYE

2011-04-21T12:16:00.002+08:00

okay anywayyy today started of with a pretty haywire morning:/

im not the kind that says how i feel inside directly so i phrase it in another way or so.

im scared being overtaken so thats why i dont wana go for the holiday mum

neither do i want you to go alone too.

in the end i just slammed my door, again.

but then i had this unexpected text and it really seemed so. unreal.

so yeah kindahappykid HAHAHHA.

i hope your visit to the doctor was alright mummy.

you sound like you were crying thru the phone.

i finished 5.5 and 6.2 and tried doing timetable HAHAHAH

HEHE plain white t is awesome:)

You pull me in close,You throw me away
I keep coming back like a boomerang.
You tell me to go,You beg me to stay.
I keep coming back like a boomerang~

yeahhhh HAHAHAH okay byebye HAHAHHA

2011-04-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

sho pretty hehe

kk anyway today was hehe. GREAT.

WE HAD maths and it was quite torturing to solve the equations:((((

and then we had reccess hehe we ate fast fast and went back class to finish art:(

and we spent the whole lit lesson doing art, instead of listening to ms sangeetha:(

HAHAHAHHAH art was okay bet mr seet was so proud of our grp HAHAHAH

HISTORY WAS OKAY and yeah,

today was okay

hehe happykid.

HEHEHEH i hope your phone recovers soon

2011-04-19T21:51:00.002+08:00

the world looks so sad without you.

today was pretty fun somehow. there was no fitt run happykid HAHA and we ended up counting coupons:)

english was uh yeah.

science was best with the GHOST STORY hahah

reccess was pretty intimidating :(

chinese was okay I wan just doing baozhangbaodao.

YAY p.e was great:) I GOT ALL As FOR 5 STATIONS except for STANDING BOARD JUMP:(

but its okay i like HEHE

Assembly was cool with that singapore idol HAHAH ooops hehe.

and then yeah

it has only been 2 days im already dying :/

2011-04-18T23:05:00.002+08:00

venice is pretty:) okay is this even venice IDK hahahha oops.

today was so sad. i got 2 demerits. what a joke.

somehow nth really worked out right.

ive been jumping around since forever cant take it anymore sigh

am i invisible? people walk past me like, WOOSH. and it kills me.

studies are making me going haywire hockey too.

trg was not really perfect today.

and worse i just missed 11:11 by a minute.

the non-vibration of my phone really makes me sadder than ever.

whats wrong with your phoneeeee? :(

bigbang is here with me tonight HAHAH

stupid liarliarliarliar~

nomnom is coming back tmr:)

oh well.

abandoned nights are really sad.

Mum stay strong :)

2011-04-15T21:32:00.002+08:00

i shall look at the brighter side of life:)

it'll make me survive through all this.

fun fair was awesome:)

but rather disappointing. i didnt get to play haunted house oh man:(

CASSANDRA CAME BACK SHE CAME BACK SHE CAME BACK OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG:) i spent 90 bucks WHAT THE SHIT.

mostly on helium balloons which flew away at the end of the day:(

but then i have a dead one at home:) well thats special

meteorite was really dizzy i suffered from a long headache:(

hall perfomance was awesome:)

yeah.

cos too many people have that mask on this world looks so fake

2011-04-14T22:14:00.002+08:00

pretty places like this are perfect with you.

today was pretty sad.but like earlier the day still ends well HEHE:)

i miss our sec 1 days:(

and i realised you wont be here for me anymore, you never had, since last year.

i hope my mummy's survives through this thing well:)

HEHEx.

tmr's funfair setup:)

my thighs are gone. literally gone HAHHA.

SO. yeah. chinese test was okay. HEHE ive got motivation:)

so yeap:)

2011-04-13T19:58:00.002+08:00

hehe sho cute:)

anyway today was just normal HAHAHA

but then i didnt do 5 items HAHAHAHAHHA im sucha slacker

and i didnt fail IC speech for eng OMG SO HAPPY

hahha

amazing things are happening and just keeps happening:)

HAHAH HEHE.

why you sho cute?!

2011-04-12T20:41:00.002+08:00

i am not ready for 5 stations tmr. neither is anyone. BUT THEN MY SBJs really cant make it.

i really hope i'd silver this year. things are going haywire again HAHAH why did miss sangeetha fail me i really dont want leave crescent.

FYI, i failed every single eng test she gave.

I WANT MISS MELINDA BACK OMG COME BACK NOW

maths you irritating hell omg and then science too.

I CAN ONLY LOVE HISTORY AND LIT NOW SIGH.

sooo bye.

2011-04-10T22:03:00.001+08:00

IM EXHAUSTED, EVERYONE IS

2011-04-09T19:45:00.003+08:00

this looks familiar. HAHHA its like the road in crazy taxi HAHA.

hows life been~ mine has its own up and downs but then anyway at the end of the day everything's still fine.

THURSDAY WAS PERFECT.:)

CRESCENT HOCKEY SO FLY;)

hahahaha so we went to support the bdiv for the match and it was really awesome:)

we held our boards up really high HAHAh and then we were really happy when they liked it so much:) aww:)

they were 1st runner up but then who cares they are the winners in everyone's heart:)

even SJI, STC AND VS was cheering was us and jeering for teck whye:)

HEHE.

but then the seniors cried and made us cried too. so everyone was hugging everyone mhmm

after that match miss ang talked to us for really long HAHHAHA but it was damn funny HAHA.

soooo then we stayed back for the prize presentation and tada we went home

i reached home at 8 :o

and then it always happens, after a happy day the next day's gonna be shit. HAHAHA so yeahhh loads of shit happen on friday but then at the end of the day, look im still living:)

this weekend's gonna be so tiring BUT THEN. HAHAHHAHA we will survive:)

and ive got enough encouragements to last me on:)

THANKS EVERYONE:)

hehe. BYEBYE

2011-04-06T20:36:00.002+08:00

OIA IS AMAZING YOU KNOW.:)

lets go there someday hehe. with that special someone:) you know.

anyway today was pretty amazing. i understood maths LIKE WOAH. LIT WAS REALLY FUN THEN ARTS WAS abit. boring doing history notes:/ well then history was hell i guess HAHA but then school ended really fast today i liked it:)

i went to each lunch with SHIRMIN and then we did the hockey boards!

MHMM MHMM hahhaha SO THEN YEAH.

nomnom is so weird today he keeps scratching himself HAHAHHA

but sho cute hehe.

kk byebye:)

I CANT WAIT FOR TMR

2011-04-05T22:30:00.004+08:00

YAY CALIFORNIA~

the past few days have been really great, discovering new interests, new friends and hockey cheering~

theres no run on monday theres no run tuesday too. hockey was great on monday. it was mostly 1v0 but who cares i love that. but my hamstring got pulled ouch ouch ouch ive been stretching and stretching for ages HAHAHA.

been staying back for board making for hockey:)

and then knowing that all these things are happening just makes me feel so great.

so yeah kk byebye HEHE

2011-04-05T22:30:00.001+08:00

2011-04-02T19:16:00.002+08:00

everyone lets go jellyfishing one day mhmm mhmm!

so hows life everyone! mine is so hectic but at the same time so many memorable things are happening.

how was april fools! HAHAHHA it was really fun wanting to prank mr goh HAHA.

so when he came in the class everyone faced the back of the class with out backs facing him and greeted him! then we sang friday to him HAHAHA. " ITS FRIDAY FRIDAY GOTTA GET DOWN ON FRIDAY"

and the prank failed terribly HAHAHA

LSCEP was really fun HAHAHA mr sinir is DA BOMB hahaha.

AND THEN CLASS ENDED WE WENT FOR LUNCH AHHA. then we went back class to the the hockey boards!!!

SO YEPPOOOO.

then we went for traininggggg.

TRAINING WAS 5-6 so we had one hour of slack time.

MOMO AND NOMNOM was the famous dudes everyone was spazzing over them HAHAH.

AND THEN TRG STARTED had friendly game with MI so yeah!

REACHED HOME AND I FELL ASLEEP WHILE TEXTING MHMM MHMM!

TODAY WAS pretty awesome but then Y SO HUMID?!

we had div1 with SCC omg matured people playing with us i wana die alreadyyyy.

bathed with yingxuan as inn different cubicles! HAHAHHA.sickos.

THEN WE HAD MACS AND THEN WE WENT HOME.

soooo we were trying to create hockey cheers on the mrt so time passed so fast:)

AND TADA WE REACHED HOME AND THEN.

hehe. AUNTIE ANNE IS MY DINNER TONIGHT FYEAH:)

OH MAN you are one of a kind:)

2011-03-30T19:22:00.003+08:00

its really no use bashing here or there or whatever.

i know you mustered up so much courage just to text me

yet i just threw you off the cliff

i am the bad person right yes fine.

i realised too. but i probably really needed this. so sorry.

everything's not going the way i want, nothing is.

haters might say i deserved all these.

whatever.

ive learnt how to survive alone anyway.

call me a pig call me a bitch

i'll accept it its the truth anyway

i never said i was skinny i was perfect so yeah.

im fat yes isnt it obvious.

but i hope you know criticism kills me

but just so you know, under every smile comes some sad truth

those things that have been plastered pathetically when will it ever come off.

when do i get to scream and shout and cry and break down

when do i get to find the perfect person to trust

when is it my turn.

mum i know all those scoldings were for the sake of myself im so sorry for always shouting at you if i make you disappointed sometimes im utterly sorry for that. i will work hard for my exams i'll make you proud. i'm really sorry for not replying your msgs. the other day i saw my contact at your phone and i had a sad face beside my name. i must have really been a bad daughter for that to happen i'll promise i'll make you proud please just bear with me when im angry i promise you it will happen less from now on. i promise.

dad i know we dont interact often cos when i reach home you'd be either at work or i'd be at my room we wouldnt even see each other for more than a minute somedays. so then when you come in and say hi to me, i'll shout at you and ask you to go away, just cos i had a bad day or so. that day when you bought me this really cool pouch to put my polaroid i shouted at you sooooo loudly and then you said, " i shouldnt have bought it" im really sorry for hurting your feelings like that you must have had such a tiring time finding the pouch and considering whether i'd like it anot. but pls understand, im not those that could say i love you so i might present it in another way so i hope you still appreciate it.

KORRRRR i am so sorry when i dont listen to all your naggings when its all beneficial to me i will follow your schedule i'll make you proud im sorry for being a disgrace to you sometimes im sorry for making you angry sometimes but anyway.thanks.

to friends who have been tolerating me since forever: im sorry for the sudden moodswings and the weird attitude and the fucking arrogant things. im sorry for the needed attention to keep me alive.im just really weird. yeah thats it. dont bear with it. help me. shout at me wake me up. thanks.

to a very special person: sorry for all the complains to you. ive realise everything you said was true.its been 3 months or so already right hows life!:) thank you for all those encouragements that kept me alive since last year. why do i have to realise that you were correct only after you arent with me. sigh. i'll remember that im a mad hatter just like you said~ thats my image HAHA. i have been surviving with your " you are great" it really helped me alot thank you. just so you know i still wish at 1212 when i catch the time.

i finally emptied myself my world is really. uhhhh. slanted now.

faith i love you thank you:)

you made today special.

2011-03-29T21:34:00.002+08:00

yes exactly welll my dreams never come true.

i had such a terrible day today but i saw a quote and it made me uhhh. not so dead HAHAH.

" if today was meant to be happy then god wouldnt have made TOMMORROW "

aw hahah. wellll crescent bdiv did a good job it was really an exciting match today:)

it was against STC HAHAHA and then we were drawed for the first and second half. so we had to go to extra time or whatever you call it! then it was draw again then we went to the penalty flicks HAHAHAH. (Y) damn cool WOOOOOOYEAH sooo they are gonna go into the finals:)

bus ride back home was pretty sad somehow. HAHAHAH

so theres eng test tmr GODDDDDDDD

and your voice is stuck in my head and i love it:)

2011-03-28T19:51:00.002+08:00

HAHAHHAHAH omg it has been so long boob.

life's been as hectic as ever okay omg

friday was cross country sooo tadaaaa

andd then i was actually top 50 wow im so surprised HAHHAHAHA. okay anywayyyy.

then after that we went for class outing HOHOO

and haddddd alot of fun hehehhehe. i tried roller blading but i failed sigh!

HAHAHHA.

okay anyway saturday was flag day with jaya and abiegail i swear it was the most tiring thing everrrrr.

SOOOOO yahh today was really tiring with training and stuffffff.

history test went well HEHEHHE but then MISS SANGEETHA WHY YOU NO CALL ME FOR SPEECH?!?!?! i waited for so long sigh.

anyway. yeahhhhhh so this was my life HAHAHHAHA i want to sleep now but got theory and zuo ye OMGOMGOMG sigh. kk byebyeeee

2011-03-23T15:31:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHHAHA hows life everyone~ mine's awesome as it goes:)

and ga in is still beautiful nothing's changed! HAHAHA

I feel like watching pokemon all over again HAHAH.

then after pokemon i'll watch runningman

then after that i'll watch adam couple again HAHAHHA.

and it goes round and round:)

maybe i'll watch man.vs.wild too.

SHIT JOWKON AND GA IN Y SHO CUTE?

HAHAHA

history was fun today HAHAHHAHA art too:) everything's just. perfect.

still adam.still adam;)

2011-03-21T21:54:00.002+08:00

they look so alike:)

it's sooooooo beautiful to see such a cute couple but im so sad that they ended HAHAHHA

why am i saying this in everypost omg~

anyway today was seriously awesome. really. (korean word) HAHAHHA. it started with pizza for breakfast:) HAHAH and cab to school woohooooo. then then after that heheh didnt have to run for h&f OMG HAPPINESS HAHAH. after that it was the first time that history was so, actually interesting for me:) YAY. oh. chinese was epic with arina/cheralynn HAHAH wth.

(shit i talking like primary school kids HAHHA)

english was so cool ms.sang didnt called me FUCKYEAH.

and i saw my watch exactly at 11:11:)

so i wished. WOOOOOOO

THEN maths was woahhhh we only did 4 questions hehe.

but then science was pretty boring but its okay HAHAHHA partly cos i was really excited bout taylor's surprise party OMOOMOOMOMOMO

her surprise party was a half success HAHAH but still:)

and we smudged chocolate cream cake on her face woah and took a Polaroid of her dirty face. AND I HAD A CREAM FIGHT WITH YINGXUAN hahha woi dont dirty my feelers~

soooooo then we went for training hehe journey to trg was so cool i talked about WGM with NIC/ARINA HAHAHH and left yingxuan and shirmin into the lost world HEHE OOPS.

ADAM COUPLEEEEEEEEE hhhahah.

oh and i was pretty much telling everything i knew to them hehe

training was great i managed to run 8 runs without whining:) heh im so happy except for the first part where we have to really sprint with the ball:/

but nvm hehe

i really like 1 v.s 0 though.

hehe i can hit today:) so we ended the trg with games:)

and went to mrt and ate AND im watching adam couple HEHEH.

kkkk ZAIJIAN i shall do my speech already:)

2011-03-20T15:19:00.000+08:00

i gave up

2011-03-20T14:08:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA why you so cute :)

life's been really boring without WGM omg:(

i want adam couple back -protest protest fangirl here rawr-

they are like. prefect HAHAHHA and small eye people are so cute

HAHAHA:)

HEHEHE SHO CUTE OMG.

its okay even tho its over they still have ALL MY LOVE hahah

aw man -deepsigh-

yay i love adam couple:)

its like missing them when i hadnt seen them before.

idk. HAHHA

2011-03-19T13:12:00.002+08:00

Gain is really beautiful.

HAHAHA :)

anyway the holidays are ending soon oops oh no.

i dont wana go back to school im not ready for tests.

im so stressed of everything its so rushed.

i wana ignore everything i go to sleep.

yes.

but who do i think i am im just one weird ass.

2011-03-12T23:40:00.001+08:00

i might as well quit hockey, i let you down anyway.

2011-03-11T19:52:00.002+08:00

so today was the last day of school finally i can have a break. well screw this day up anyway.

school was great hockey was great. well what to do its pretence shit again.

everything's pulling this smile down. EVERYTHING.

I hate being so weak i hate crying to myself i hate the friendship cycle i hate so many things that i just wana sleep until its over.

im so pissed with EVERYFUCKINGSHIT i just cant get over it.

when i was going home after hockey i saw this lil boy rushing for the bus but his mummy couldnt run as fast as he could. i rmb doing that to my mummy too. it made me realise that im sucha bad daughter. i dont study and i dont get to her expectations.well what makes me cry? she doesnt scold she encourages instead. i want my family to be my friends. they have everything im looking for. attention,love,care,hugs.

honestly even the stray cats i see on the road gives me more attention than people,friends, teachers.

i cant stand it when teachers actually make fun of students. you know they might commit suicide bcos of the sentence you said? YOU ARE TEACHERS PLS THINK BEFORE YOU DO.

when i got home today i got welcomed by my family i was so touched. who would actually do that in school. i asked myself. NO ONE. literally. i wanted to express the gratitude but turned out saying thank you -.-

yes. i am a fucking weird kid. please get over that.

i try so hard but i end up losing everything.

so what for try?

from no on i'll stop trying and live with it.

everything.

i'll survive.

2011-03-10T19:38:00.002+08:00

i am seriously sick of you.

i wished i could have ignored you forever. EVER.

but whatever.

i think i should just shut it up now.

kk bye

2011-03-06T23:25:00.001+08:00

helllo darlings HAHA im back from vietnam:)

i like life in vietnam its just so peaceful i wana live there:)

2011-02-27T11:20:00.000+08:00

life's been great, seeing people reactions when you give them a surprise is just. speechlessly perfect:) well, enjoy yourself in sarawak jingwen:) no cry no more k:) takecare.

man, im missing already:(

vietnam tmr:) rooms in a pretty mess now:( oh no.

anyway.

i am really tired:)

and i just cant wait for tmr

OH MAN:)

byebye

2011-02-25T22:44:00.002+08:00

this week has been such a busy week. tests, hockey, match supporting, internationlisation, friendship poop shit, and less sleep. but its okay, this week ended off with sucha fucking awesome friday. IM LOVING TODAY. EVERYTHING GOES PERFECT:)

tests? i think i gave up already anyway. im going vietnam soon HAHAHAA and im making such a surprise on sunday:)seee. it ends off so nicely.

you're happy too.

god really gave me a perfect day.

thanks:)

2011-02-22T22:25:00.002+08:00

life's been so hectic its just haywire:( tests everyweek and im failing every single shit. its really sucks like poop when you acutally studied for everything and then you get those grades back. its fucking depressing really-.- and so after that impact you tell yourself to give up and yeahhhh so you did and then thats when you feel nothing at all when you fail those shits cos you didnt put in effort at all. but reality is, im really tired and everyday at home is torture. still staying at school even when its 6pm already. countless assignments to be handed up the next day when we have hockey on the day itself and it really slaps the hell outta you:(

breathing seems so difficult, life's so jammed packed its like a rollercoaster ride, holdon,

-----REPHRASE-----

HELL.

yeap life is hell.

internationalistion's next week and no we're not ready yet. KILL ME PLEASE.

i just want to sleep for 24 hours for a day, it isnt that hard to grant it hur?

i just want to be back in sec 1 like how i used to, quite hard to grant hur

i just want to watch dream high please, sounds impossible hur?

i just dont want school. never gonna happen.

:/ life's shit

2011-02-17T20:25:00.002+08:00

I'll have that room someday.

this week passed so fast im like still lagging back at last week. tmr's friday already ITS.REALLY.FAST. and after that it'll be internationlisation already. i am so freaking eggcited:). and maybe after two blinks i'd be sec 3 already. who knows? i wana finish this year with really no regrets but HAHAHA i dont think i can do that.:/ everyday at school is a new adventure LALALA. and the only reason why im attending school is because of you. busy schedules sad tears, everything. AND I REALLY WISH THAT I WONT GET INJURED ANYMORE. really. please pray for me if you have nth to wish for. WHAT RUBBISH. HAHA.

i am really exhausted i feel like breaking down for a while and make time stop so i can take everything slowly and breathe in, breathe out.

i tried so hard for training today i am so damn proud of myself.

but its not a perfect day without a smiling you.

please, god. make me a perfect day. AT LEAST ONE

2011-02-14T22:18:00.003+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S ALL MY LOVE~:)

it feels so great to see all the smiles the people have when they are reading the card you wrote for them.:) hehe. this year's valentine's really awesome and meaningful i'll never forget it~ hor unlike last year HAHAHAH.I spent pretty alot of time doing cards for 12 people and im still working on it. HAHAH sighhhh,instaxs are really beautiful. YEPPOOO~

i really shouldnt have poppedmy helium balloon for jingwen:( HORRRR.

anyway.

THANK YOU ABIEGAIL for your PATRICKKKKK!

THANK YOU YUWEN for your awesome chocalate hope you liked my gifttt!

THANK YOU YINGXUAN FOR THE stupz plain card compared to mine!

THANK YOU CHERALYNN for the pretty pretty card hehe.

THANK YOU ARINA RASHID for the LETTER AND LIZZY!!!!

THANK YOUR ARINA NADIAH for the omfg cutesy sticky note:)

THANK YOU WIFEY/PABO/PONY/JINGWEN for all the time you spent on me and my V'day prezzieeee :)))) SARANGHAE:)

so.see? I LOVE VDAY.:)

HELIUMM HEARTS.

2011-02-09T21:29:00.002+08:00

LALALALA why i still have the cough and sore throat OMG:(

im okay im okay im okay im okay. im okay with pushing aways im okay with drifting aways im okay with all the aways. im okay with you two im okay i tell myself i have other people im okay with all these stuff im okay im okay. what did you say you forgot eh? yes im selfish im too sensitive and im okay everyday.

truth is, im not okay.

yeap. you can stop expecting so much from me find the true me I.AM.NOT.SO.KIND.AFTERALL.YES.

oh.let me get rid of this phobia first. kk thanks

FUCKKK STOP GETTING SAD OVER THESE LITTLE STUFF ARGH. would you please?

2011-02-04T14:55:00.002+08:00

Life's been torturous with fever, flu, bruised knee, sprained ankle and never ending cough.

i want my checkered shirt back omfg where did it fly to:( CNY's here and i think its pretty boring and lifeless. i dont feel so highighupinthesky when i get a strike like how i used to. i dont think family gatherings are so cool like i used to. I MISS THE GOOD OLD DAYS. when im still a toddler wobbling my own way down sho cute:) i think things are going way wild these days. i've got burdens HAHA. overtaking's something i really fear too and you. i'd really ignore you if i could you know but i wouldnt and i couldnt yes yes. SO. yeah.

COW COME ON STAY STRONG I KNOW U CAN DO IT;)

2011-02-01T22:52:00.002+08:00

LALALALA HELLO SYAFIQAH PABO why so scared of me:(( AHAHHAHA

okayyy today is a goooddd day HEHEH IU. OKAYY WHY SO AWKWARD NOWW LALALA

oh anyway tmr half day OMG SO EXCITING LALALA IM GONNA PUT DOWN MY FRINGE

KK BYE IM LAZYYY

2011-01-31T20:37:00.002+08:00

SHUT THE WORLD DOWN.

cos its always not my turn to show the sadness its always theirs im sick of this when will this round turn to me. i miss the consolations i miss your encouragements i miss it so much im about to die. i want to make this world something that i would actually believe in i want to trust everyone but no i cant. at least someone, hur, i cant even find that. cos sometimes its easier to trust someone that you're not close with than the ones you are close with. I REALIZE THAT NOW.yeahhhh i did. SO MUCH. you want me to forget. you want me to not fear you. but i'll tell you smth, im fearing you much more i wouldnt tell you anything no more im sorry im like that but i'd prefer turning to people that i can trust, and im still working on that. fuckmylife for the last time LET ME BREATHE

2011-01-30T21:59:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHHA rainy sunday omg so romantic love it. HEHE woke upp early to mug omg im so guai this year HUALAH. (: i actually learnt tingxie and i spent 2 hours on it.:) OHHH this is what tingxie caused me to become :

before

after

MMM YES HAHAH. shit i feel like a retard now HAHAHAHAH. OKAY i was bored! thats why yeah yeah. YEAHHH then family dinner was a waste of time FOOD SUCKS YUCKS.

yeap. HAHAHAHHAHA run tmr. YEAHHH ima love it so much. GOD. i fucking will get out of HFC k.

DAMN.

2011-01-29T18:27:00.003+08:00

hello HEHEHE. Classic saturdays:) lazy piggy i woke up at 2.30 pm and mugged that effing science for 4 whole hours. MAN. hahahah. hohooh then i had chinese corrections which is what im doing now!

yayyy pictures hehe

HOCKEYYY BABES WHEN IM SICK HAHAH )

HAHA sexy legs with syafiqah!(OKAYYY GROSS)

CLASS PETS MOMO AND NOMNOM HAHAHA

MEDICINE THAT I HAVE TO TAKE EVERYDAY.( like thrice a day)

yeahhh okay im gonna webcam soon AHAHHAHAHAH yay

2011-01-28T15:18:00.002+08:00

I HATE WHY I DONT HAVE FREEDOM.

I HATE IT JUST SO MUCH

I HATE IT FOR FEARING THOSE NON-EXISTENT BULLSHIT THAT BUILDS UP MY MIND

I HATE THAT I HAVE TO RUN ON MONDAYS

I HATE THAT I HAVE THIS PIECE OF PLASTIC COVERING MY FACE EVERYDAY

I HATE THIS LIFE I HATE THE WORLD I HATE EVERYTHING.

I HATE THAT NO ONE KNOWS HOW DO I REALLY FEEL

I HATE IT. THIS LOT.

JUST SO YOU KNOW.

2011-01-27T19:47:00.002+08:00

im so tired and sick and injured and everything. sore throat plus flue plus sprained ankle whyy am i suffering from this. I REALLY WANT TO GET WELL SOON i dont wana get pushed back for hockey i really really dont want. i dont want to miss school i dont want to make my parents worry make you worry. MAN. i dont really want anything lets just stop and stare, thinking im moving but i go nowhere~ hehe naise song:) helium hearts too:)

KIDS, YOU DONT REALLY WANA GET SICK ITS REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE HATE IT SO MUCH.

hehe i got da smexy voice DAYUM:)

hehe BOOBIES.

2011-01-24T22:25:00.002+08:00

im dying from sore throat GAHHHHHH

there's chinese spelling tmr can die OMG I DONT WANT.

so. today was pretty tiring kay i tell you the sec 1s omg stupid @#$T#@$%.

happy birthday haifa HEHE.

OKAYYY the sore throat's really bad i wana die already cannot tahan HURRRR.

theres vietnam briefing tmr hehe so funz

ohgay i tell you since i brought nth home i dont have anything to do now. IMA SLEEP KAY HEHE

im really really really really tired.:((((

2011-01-23T00:35:00.002+08:00

MEHEHEHE I LIKE TODAY. :) soo we went ntu to have friendly with JURONG WEST YOYOOYOY.

hehe all so yeppo right k go facebook see i lazy to copy and paste~

if i die young, bury me in satin~

HOHO this song's the BOOMZ.

hehe I CANT WAIT FOR MONDAY~~~

you know there's this cat that loiters around my voiddeck every day, sleep there, eat there, i think it's so cute.but today when i came back from training it was abused by two fucking brainless primary school boys. WAHLAO i gave them the stare then they ran away. then i walked towards the cat HAHAH. :( it was so scared that'd i'd hurt it and it shivered like really bad.:( :((( the cat cant even sleep in peace k. everytime a person walks past it then it will like, be so sensitive and get up and look around for danger then go sleep again:(( I WANA BRING HIM TO SPCA.:( SO YEAP. dear cat, please be braver and leave here for a better life~

2011-01-21T20:14:00.002+08:00

BAD HAIR DAY~:(

box of polaroids make my whole day go YIPEE YA YA

KAY. theres hockey tmr again. LIKE. again.

so today i proved that i cant defend well so YEAP. maybe someday i'll just crash on the floor saying I GIVE UP. anyway the morning was quite rushyy had to go to tobi's class and take polaroidd:) then kit was late hurhur. HAHAHHA then it was english test !@#^$%gf#$%^#@! I DIDNT PRINT OUT FORMAT wahlao. hahahahah. SOOO IT WAS SCIENCE AND THEN CHINESE hoho wifey. KAY HAHAHA. then soooo I TOOK INSTAX WITH JINGWEN rawr and then rushh to hockey HAHAHAH. soooo it was tiring aand blah. BYEBYE.

im sorry i have to rush abit my tpc batt is going to be flat soon and im too lazy to go find the charger k BUAI.

2011-01-20T21:42:00.002+08:00

because i missed it last year i dont wana miss it this year too.

School life has been supaaa busyy and i dont have free time except like now cos its half day today HAHA. time past so fast a week flew past already. im glad that my 1111 wishes came true:) and im happy to see the sec 1s getting ready for their HELL life in crescent HAHAHA. kay. im glad to have so many friends HEHE think i said that before not long ago.:) SO. after school today we went to SWIRLART and had a swirl of a time~( im sorry if the pic's a lil pic its from fb)

AND MANYMANY MORE too lazy to copy and paste already:)

I THINK THERE'S A ENGLISH TEST TMR. hohoho.

SHIT IM DEAD.

2011-01-15T23:24:00.002+08:00

going to sleep everynight,

thinking that there would at least have ONE day when everything goes well for me.

We had friendly match against JURONG WEST today! being placed in reserve was smth that i dreaded since primary school cos those people would ALWAYS feel left out. so yeah. you know some people try their best to do everything they can to improve but they JUST WONT GET IT. while others get the jackpot and everything. I WANA BE THE the jackpot-ed one so bad. just so you know. just so EVERYONE know. -had to be erased sentence- MMM~. i have hockey tmr :/ its like having it 5 days straight, thurs,fri,sat,sun,mon.NEXT TUESDAY was gonna be free but VIETNAM BRIEFING ate it away. WEDNESDAY was gonna to be free but STUDIES made it fly far far away.THURSDAY AND FRIDAY was supposed to be free yes i know but HOCKEY TRAINING inked their marks on those days. How fun is it gonna be next week. very, i guess.

i fear being overtaken, you know.

2011-01-15T21:10:00.002+08:00

WHY ADAM COUPLE SAY BYEBYE:(

IM NOT GONNA WATCH WGM ALREADY:(((

OMG not gonnna like F.CUZ's jinon. LALALA.

kk omg i cant wait for tmr we're gonnna fly kite at sengkang!!!:):)

SO COOL WAHLAO HEHE

(oh no so big HAHAHA)

2011-01-13T22:12:00.002+08:00

OH NOOO WHY TMR GOT MATHS TEST.:'(

HAHA life's been really great! things has been going well i am happy :):)

BUT why are juniors this year so.. DARING. woah they just talk to the seniors like we're the same age or smth! BLEHH. i am so thankful for sooo many friends i have in CRESCENT everyday going to school smth stupid is always gonnna happen. :) ISNT THAT GREAT. lizzy and junsu's here too MAKES ME LIFE MORE ROUND! heheh. AND TUMBLR IS ONE ENCOURAGING SITE TOO HAHHAHA.

HEHE. ;) IKR. TOTALLY.

soooo okay BYEBYE

2011-01-11T21:52:00.000+08:00

cos you're the center of attraction you're everything. FINE.

2011-01-09T00:13:00.003+08:00

i want to be what you said in number 7 so bad. but i know its not me. its just too obvious.

i feel like we're really like strangers after oh-how-many months or so. i really wanna tell you how hard i'm trying now. REALLY. just to, be with them.i think i'm really dying. how the hell did i manage to smile and be hyper and go through everyday, cos i remembered you said i was great. it really made me going so thank you.

but you'll never come here. wont you. wouldn't you just give me strength like you used to. i've realised that i shouldn't really publish those hateful and obvious posts like how you said cos the other day they were reading it. i felt damn intimidated and deleted it. should i just delete this whole blog HAHAHA.

see its just another laugh made of plastic. all i want is just to find the courage and the strength and all the confidence i had when you were encouraging me every time i'd die. but guess what. i guess it flew away.

wishes at 1111 never come true, but im still hoping for the 1212 ones.

MAKE MY WISH COME TRUE.

i guess your words really have impact. BIG ONES.

well i guess tonight's one of those nights that tears falllll.

2011-01-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

2010-12-30T14:19:00.001+08:00

cute right